Tuesday, October 16, 2007

The Final truth - part 24

Jenny had added Jinming in msn.... but they had not really met in the net.Finally on 30 sept, they met in the msn.

Jenny told jinming everything about peijing...Jinming is so sad to know about the truth, what peijing had said and done are all lies.She cheated Johnston,and him.

In a moment of anger, he smsed peijing and scolded her, that fierce word "bitch" came into the picture.

Peijing was very angry when Jinming scolded her bitch.

In a fierce exchange of words in the sms,

Peijing typed,
" You are just a fool that let me play all around, a loser that try to turn the table, i deeply love my bf now, so get out of my life."

" Dumbo, it must be Johnston that had told you everything, i dun care who told you all this things, i dun give a damn on it, i did not cheat anyone."

Jinming was hurt by her words, he replied.
" bitch, i had never regret what i did all along for you, because what i had done is true to a person, at least my conscience is clear, if your conscience is not clear, you would not have message me in msn and told me you are sorry, what you had done, you know, karma will get you. "

That is the final ending of everything, 2 hours later, peijing tried to call jinming, but he never pick it up, he is very disappointed by her.

Jinming got the final answer of everything, the messenger send by heaven to tell him everything.Peijing had shown her true colour, but jinming still believe in the start, her words in the sms is based on a moment of anger, her conscience is not clear.He hate her,he force himself to hate her, so that he could forget her.

Jinming deleted her away from msn, deleted her away from friendster and facebook, deleted her blog url away from his fav list and had not read her blog since the day she knew she suddenly had a bf.

Johnston went back to his normal life, still a manager in his work, he learnt a lesson.

kevin is still a MIA figure in peijing's memory.

Quiton still shower peijing with expensive gifts and makes her live a luxury life,but unknown to Quiton, in peijing's heart, there is only Kevin.She loves the gifts from Quiton only.

Monday, October 15, 2007

The SORRY message - part 23

Jinming was sleeping when Peijing message him in msn.

Peijing texted,
" I know you may hate me or what, im really sorry, but i hope one day if we meet, it will be a happy one."

20 mins gone, there is still no reply from Jinming.

Peijing texted again,
" you dun wana talk to me again is it? "

Her message was never replied.

The next morning when jinming woke up, he saw her message.He felt nothing at all, she is no more the reason that let him smile anymore.He believes that peijing is confused about her actions, but he told himself he must forget this woman.

Jinming closed the window of her msn, he told himself, he will never reply her message in here anymore....the more she text him the more he find her fake.

Friday, October 5, 2007

The Messenger from her blog link - part 22

Peijing seldom update her blog, it is like 3 to 4 entries for 1 month....her sisters in her blog link would read her blog once in a while.

Jenny was one of them, she is one of her sisters in her blog link. Peiying had linked one of Jinming's blog in her blog.

Jenny happened to read Jinming's blog, and found out all the things Jinming had done for her, found out all this while the things had happened.Jenny really got a shocked.

First thing in Jenny's mind was.
" haizz, another victim."

Jenny knew about kevin,quiton,johnston exist....but never knew so far away...there is still another Jinming.

Jenny read everything jinming had wrote, she decided to tell jinming about it.....so she had been using a fake name to talk him....she used kw in jinming blog and tagged a few times, makes jinming notice her.

Jinming had wondered about this kw, first thing in his mind, he knew that that kw want to tell him something about peijing....he had asked and tried to know who is kw?

All the while, after that phonecall, peijing had not contact jinming...

Peijing had actually read jinming blog a few times after their last phonechat, she posed as ...... in jinming tag board and asked him to continue to write his story, maybe peijing will be back? and at the same time ask kw, she know peijing?

Peijing had already wondered and notice this kw....but she never knows it was Jenny, one of her sisters in her blog link.

Jenny is a clever person, she created a msn account using kw as her name and added jinming in msn....she dun want jinming to know who is she.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Standby lover?

ไม่เหงาไม่มาใช่ไหม อยากได้ค่อยมาใช่ไหม
If you're not lonely you won't come, is that right? If you want something you'll eventually show up, am I right?

เห็นเป็นคนแก้ขัดหรือยังไง หยุดเลยไม่เอา
Do you think I am just a substitute of someone? Stop it, I don't want it.

ไม่คุ้มในความเจ็บช้ำ ที่เธอตอบแทน เราเป็นแฟนกันซะเปล่า
I don't deserve this pain that you've repaid me with, are we lovers or not?

อยากได้แค่ของชั่วคราว ก็เชิญไปหาข้างหน้าดีกว่าไหมเธอ
All you wanted were just temporary, would it be better for you to move on ahead?

คนฆ่าเวลา หรือค่าฉันมีแค่นี้
A person to kill your time with, am I worth only this much?

บอกฉันมาที เธอคบฉันไว้ทำไม
Tell me why are you still hanging out with me?

หรือเพียงแค่ที่ระบาย ผ่อนคลายอารมณ์ตอนเหงาใจ
Am I just someone to release your emotions and make you feel at ease when you're lonely?

อยากมาก็มา เบื่อกันก็ไป อย่างนั้น ใช่ไหม
So you come as you please and when you're bored of me, you leave like that, am I right?

กอดฉันเบาๆ แกล้งทำเป็นคิดถึง
You hug me softly and pretend you missed me.

บอกรักครั้งหนึ่ง ไม่ได้ซึ้งเท่าไร
Said you loved me once, it didn't impress me much.

เมื่อตอนที่ฉันต้องการ เธอเองก็ยังมาหายไป
Whenever I need you, you'd never shown up.

กล้าพูดได้ไหม ว่าเรายังเป็นคนรัก
Dare to say that can you? that we're still lovers...

สนุกกับใครไปวันๆ หลงลืมฉันไว้ที่ตรงไหน
You just spend you time with others. Where was I marred by your negligence?

พอทีอย่ามานิสัย ตอนจะเดียวดาย ค่อยมานึกถึงกัน
Enough, don't gimme that behaviour. When you're alone, you'll slowly realise it.

ไม่เหงาไม่มาใช่ไหม อยากได้ค่อยมาใช่ไหม
If you're not lonely you won't come, is that right? If you want something you'll eventually show up, am I right?

เห็นเป็นคนแก้ขัดหรือยังไง หยุดเลยไม่เอา
Do you think I am just a substitute of someone? Stop it, I don't want it.

ไม่คุ้มในความเจ็บช้ำ ที่เธอตอบแทน เราเป็นแฟนกันซะเปล่า
I don't deserve this pain that you've repaid me with, are we lovers or not?

อยากได้แค่ของชั่วคราว ก็เชิญไปหาข้างหน้าดีกว่าไหมเธอ
All you wanted were just temporary, would it be better for you to move on ahead?

(Interlude)

สนุกกับใครไปวันๆ หลงลืมฉันไว้ที่ตรงไหน
You just spend you time with others. Where was I marred by your negligence?

พอทีอย่ามานิสัย ตอนจะเดียวดาย ค่อยมานึกถึงกัน
Enough, don't gimme that behaviour. When you're alone, you'll slowly realise it.

ไม่เหงาไม่มาใช่ไหม อยากได้ค่อยมาใช่ไหม
If you're not lonely you won't come, is that right? If you want something you'll eventually show up, am I right?

เห็นเป็นคนแก้ขัดหรือยังไง หยุดเลยไม่เอา
Do you think I am just a substitute of someone? Stop it, I don't want it.

ไม่คุ้มในความเจ็บช้ำ ที่เธอตอบแทน เราเป็นแฟนกันซะเปล่า
I don't deserve this pain that you've repaid me with, are we lovers or not?

อยากได้แค่ของชั่วคราว ก็เชิญไปหาข้างหน้าดีกว่าไหมเธอ
All you wanted were just temporary, would it be better for you to move on ahead?

ไม่เหงาไม่มาใช่ไหม อยากได้ค่อยมาใช่ไหม
If you're not lonely you won't come, is that right? If you want something you'll eventually show up, am I right?

เห็นเป็นคนแก้ขัดหรือยังไง หยุดเลยไม่เอา
Do you think I am just a substitute of someone? Stop it, I don't want it.

ไม่คุ้มในความเจ็บช้ำ ที่เธอตอบแทน เราเป็นแฟนกันซะเปล่า
I don't deserve this pain that you've repaid me with, are we lovers or not?

อยากได้แค่ของชั่วคราว ก็เชิญไปหาข้างหน้าดีกว่าไหมเธอ
All you wanted were just temporary, would it be better for you to move on ahead?


The words above the english words is thai, this is lyrics of a thai song by am fine.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

The sudden phonecall from her - part 21

Jinming did not contact peijing for a few days, the msn messages that peijing send was not replied at all by jinming.

Jinming was sad about peijing recent MIA actions, he really hoped he could understand her more? talk to her more? but whenever he wanted to knock at the her door heart, she did not answer at all.

That deleted xanga blog entry had always been in jinming's mind, he still dun understand why peijing delete that entry off, his only conclusion is, peijing scare kevin will see that blog entry, so she delete it off....jinming all the while had knew that kevin is the one she miss.Jinming would refreshed the xanga blog everytime he online, hope that the deleted entry would be back one day.

But it always end up seeing the same thing, the only entry first entry she had wrote.

On 11 sept, her 3am his 12pm....peijing gave a call to jinming....

he was in his sleep, he wondered who would call him at this time....he picked up his Nokia 73 and saw it was peijing!!!!!!!

he was so delighted and answered the call.

Jinming.
"hello."

Peijing.
" Hi, how is your LA trip? is it fun? "

Jinming.
"Nope, it was not really that fun at all."

Peijing.
" why you did not replied my msn messages? and my tag board? "

Jinming.
" oh, i was sleeping that time. "

Peijing.
" ic, do i have to pay by calling you now? "

Jinming.
" yes, of course...."

Peijing.
" then i off the line, i call you next time"

Jinming can/t bear to drop the phone.
" ermm, why not i call you now, is cheaper."

They off the line.Jinming called her immediately.

Peijing.
" yup, ermmmm"

Jinming.
" is your eyes better? u mention that your dad is in hospital in your blog? how is he?"

Peijing.
" yup better i guess, just having fever now, feeling drowsy, taking so much medicine,that dad is so call my god dad. "

Peijing.
" i feeling very sleepy now, i call you again, good nite. "

Jinming.
" can i say no? but ok dun force you,good night to you. "

After the phonecall, jinming knew she would not contact him anymore, he somehow had a feeling of something, something just brother him...dunno why....he just dun feel right about something....he was happy to recieve her call.

Jinming texted a sms to her while she was sleeping.
" my webcam had not been use since 10 august till now, it had always been waiting for someone, only that ppp, my webcam miss her."

The whole day gone, she did not even gave a reply on that sms.

Uknown to jinming, on the other side of the story, Quiton had became peijing bf, they met up almost everyday,Johnston became quite miserable, keep drinking everyday alone, he did not know why peijing wana leave her? and as for kevin, he had MIA from peijing for quite awhile.....kevin last send peijing some cookies from japan was 2 weeks ago.

None of the guys knew peijing had already had a sudden bf, quiton.

Jinming really puzzled, he still hope peijing will speak to him more like last time....he still hope to understand peijing more even thought he knew peijing will not love him cause of kevin.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

The tag board/msn message part 20

Unknown to johnston,jinming and kevin....peijing had already been with quiton for a couple of days....quiton brought her lots of branded stuffs, to anywhere she like to go, pamper her just like a princess.

Jinming had decided to give up peijing, cause she really make him suffer....on the 8 of sept, she again tag in his blog.

peijing typed.
" imu, and i really meant it, i miss webcammming with you now!!! "

peijing at the same time texted jinming in msn.
" i hope you have a good holiday in LA, and i really miss you lots "

Jinming saw it, he was numb....that night he decided to forget her, he deleted her off from his msn list...but he did not block her.

And at the same time,he also delete her off from his friendster list, he knew something is going to happen....he sense something not right about peijing....unknown to jinming, quiton had already become peijing's bf.

Jinming felt rather sad to do these two foolish act by deleting her away....the only way to forget her is to dislink her, he made up his mind not to contact her....althought he delete her away...he would view her friendster and blog everyday without fail.

on 9 of sept, peijing posted a shoutout message in friendster.
"loveulikecrazy"

johnston saw it, jinming also saw it....johnston was sad to know she actually ditched him and had a bf so fast....at jinming side, he still wondered??/ he really puzzled about that message? is it to kevin?

the same day, he finally found kevin in her friendster list, the hiroshima guy that she like and always mentioned in her blog....in kevin testimonial, jinming saw a message by peijing to kevin.

11 sept by peijing
"ermmm i miss you."

This made jinming ready to give up peijing, he really hope kevin is the missing piece for her, he wants her to be happy, with the guy she really needs and like...jinming knew his chances is limited.He just want peijing to be happy.

The reappear her - part 19

On the 2 of sept...Peijing finally appeared out of nowhere, jinming had just came back to his hotel with his friends...he saw peijing online.

Jinming texted her in msn.
" hi, how are you? your eyes getting better? "


Peijing replied.
" im ok. tell you something, you dun worry ok? "

Jinming.
"ok"

peijing.
" i did not reply your sms,because im in hospital, i stay there for 1 week, cause of my eyes again...infected again."

Jinming.
" are you ok? why you never tell me at all? "

after that peijing went offline without saying anything.....

Jinming texted a sms to her.
"I DUNNO WHY??? TALK TO YOU EVERYTIME IS LIKE TALKING TO AIR, YOU NEVER LET ME HAVE A CHANCE TO TALK TO U PROPERLY, YOU JUST LIKE TO HIDE."

haizzzzz, jinming tuck into his blanket and sleep, liting was beside him, she knew this brother of her is really sad, the next day she talk to jinming.

Jinming is just too stubborn to listen to liting.

Monday, October 1, 2007

The crestfallen jinming - part 18

It had been 1 week, he sent a few sms to her, all are not reply.Jinming really wondered what happen to peijing?

Jinming sent a sms to peijing on 28 august,
" hi, how is your eyes? why you did not reply my sms? are you avoiding me? "

On 29 august,jinming sent her another sms on 12 am sharp.

"happy birthday to you peijing"

His messages wasn/t replied at all.

During this period, jinming went Los Angeles with weisiong and jianwei, they meet liting, jinming singapore's friend there.

Jinming felt sad during the trip, he was not cheerful at all, he keep thinking that why she never reply his sms? since the day 10 august after he knew kevin exist, he was not happy at all.He wanted to call her, but scare the phonechat will ended in less than a minute due to peijing.

Liting had been asking jinming not to think too much about her, weisiong and jianwei had tried their best to cheer jinming up.

On the other side of the hemisphere, peijing ditched johnston, she had even demanded $$$ from him to abort their baby....unknown to johnston, peijing wasn/t even pregnant, she just wana use the $$$ to celebrate her birthday in one of the club.

Johnston actually believed her and gave her the $$$.

On the night of her birthday party, she knew quiton from macy, her friend.And from that day onwards she had been dating with quiton.

suddenly so many guys appeared....johnston,kevin,quiton?????? only kevin, jinming knew he exist.

The MIA her - part 17

After that phone call, peijing did not call back jinming.

He knew something is not right, "guessing game" keep appear in his mind, that whole week, he sent her 5 sms, but none of them was replied.

Jinming gave her a offline msn message, asked her if she is still joining them for the Los Angeles trip?

Peijing replied in a offline msn message.
" i can/t join you for the trip, maybe next year feb, i can come and find you during winter. "

Unknown to jinming from the start.

Peijing intially had a boyfriend, but she did not tell jinming about it, that mystery boyfriend, was johnston.

Johnston was a manager of a finance company,she was peijing's boss, he had been dating peijing for the past 2 months before jinming knew peijing....peijing lie to jinming that she did not have a boyfriend.

All this while, jinming was kept in the dark, where he thinks that her heart only had the hiroshima guy, he was kevin.

And all this while, in peijing's blog, she had only mentioned about kevin all the while, in her heart, the missing piece is actually kevin.

While peijing MIA from jinming for that period of 1 week, she resigned from the company and she also left johnston.

Johnston was devastated, she left without saying anything....not even a single bye.

In another hemisphere, Jinming miss her lots, he really wondered what she is doing? how is her eyes?