His friday, her saturday.
Jinming as usual had just finished his work...his 11pm in friday and her 2pm in saturday, the time different between them is something special, jinming had felt that peijing kind of hiding something from him.
Jinming looked at his clock, already 150pm, no news of the mango cake sent to her house, he was waiting for the staff in emicakes to send him a msn mesage indicate the cake had been send, he sat by his laptop and at the same time he was reading peijing recent post in her blog and also the deleted xanga blog entry about him, the same that entry had been refresh a few times, it is gone forever!
155pm, peijing sent jinming a sms, its HER!!!!!
Peijing texted.
" i really dunno what to say when i see the cake, thanks you very much, love. and im online now. "
In the msn, jinming saw her online, he was kind of happy to see her again....
peijing typed in msn.
" boy, really thanks for the cake, i really can/t bear to eat it. "
5 minutes gone.
Jinming did not reply her at all, he was puzzled what to say to her? he was thinking of the hiroshima guy that she liked, that guy had just sent a LV bag for birthday present and some chocolate from Japan....compared to the gift he sent...is nothing.
10 minutes gone, jinming still did not reply her....
peijing texted again.
" hey, what are you doing now? you wana call me now? "
Jinming finally replied her.
" im blogging, ok i will call you in 5 minutes time. "
At this moment, the staff from emicakes msged jinming in msn.
staff from emicakes typed.
" hey Jinming, the mango cake had been sent, wish you good luck and all the best, i bet she would like it very much from a nice guy from you, you are really one kind of guy, from your blog i had read, you are really romantic and sentimental....jiayou!. "
Jinming wondered awhile, he was thinking should he give up peijing? cause he knew all the while she had been missing the hiroshima guy, she everytime mentioned about him in her blog...but not jinming.
Jinming miss her, he really wanted to hear her voice....so jinming called her.
Ringggggggggggggggg,ringgggggggggggggggggggg.
Jinming voice.
" hello, how is your eyes? getting better? "
Peijing replied.
" i can/t really hear you,where are you? can you speak louder? "
Jinming replied.
" hello, hello, can you hear this time? "
peijing.
" yeah, much more clearer, so where are you? are you walking to somewhere? "
Jinming.
" nope, im in front of my laptop, so do you like the cake? "
Peijing.
" yes, very much, thank you, why did you choose mango cake? "
Jinming.
" cause i once saw you eat mango cake in front of the webcam, i think you will like it."
Peijing teased jinming.
" you got miss me or not? you said in your blog, you say you miss my mole is it? "
Jinming shocked and shy.
" ermmmmm,argghhhh...ya...if you think i miss you means i miss you lor, if no means no lor. "
Peijing giggles.
" i know you miss me, ermmm what did you ordered? you still have something to give me is it? you stated in your blog said you have ordered something but have not reached? what did you buy for me? "
Jinming at this moment stunned, he did not expect her to say those words, he suddenly think that she kind of craving for something, another side of peijing showed,in jinming's heart, he was crestfallen for what she asked.Actually the order thing is the cake.
Jinming replied.
" er, no lah, nothing, nothing...i did not order anything."
Jinming really dunno what to talk to her, he feel abit sad, he just dunno why??????? he should be happy talking to her in phone, yet he felt sad.
At the same time, peijing internet connection was in offline....while she was still in phone with jinming.
Peijing said.
" Do you know how to set up the router for the wireless thing, i have problem in it,keep offline. "
Jinming replied,
" im not very sure, maybe you could asked singtel? you just changed a new connection?
Peijing replied.
" ermm yup, im busy now, why don/t we talk later? i call you later or you call me later ok? . "
Jinming replied.
" can i say no? ok lor, you go do your things. "
In jinming's heart, he knew she wun call him for sure, even sms nowadays seem less and no reply at all...but he really hope peijing would have a happy birthday, she would eat the cake and celebrate with her family.
He knew at night, she will be having a party at Velvet Dragon, he just hoped she would enjoyed herself there but not drunk till vomit blood again...dunno why? jinming just felt hurt by her question about the order things....that night, he switch on his thai mp3 and blast them to his sleep.
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Saturday, September 29, 2007
The sick Jinming - part 15
The hottest period of summer, this is the first time jinming experience summer in this desert, arizona....the average temperature is 40 degrees here for summer...jinming had a slight fever and feel very weak at work.
He feel so trouble, he wonder why peijing did not reply his sms? he asked himself why why? @ work, he keep asking elvin about it, why why? elvin just give him one answer,
" girls nowadays are very weird lah....don/t think too much about her, it will affect your work."
After work, jinming was kind of bored and hungry, it had been a long time he had a good dinner, so he asked his colleagues out for a dinner, yiming,zhuping,jianwei,elvin,gao an went with him....but the "kuku" jinming make a wrong turn in one of the intersection, he nearly got himself into a accident, lucky the steering wheel he moved was fast enough, if not his car could have been crashed by the lorry.
He was lost awhile in some car park, his hp was in slience mode, zhuping had called him 3 times, it was not answered.....after awhile, jinming finally found the place.
The same, once jinming got home, his first thing is to on his laptop....to see if peijing is online, he finally saw her msn message!!!! it was a offline msn message by peijing.
peijing typed on
23 aug ,540am
" i know you are @ work,i did not reply your sms,cause im using hi card,please take care of yourself, drink more water ok? i kinda miss you very much, i hope there will be no other ppl that comes between us. iloveu "
Jinming is so delighted to see her msn message, the same night he sms her again.
Jinming texted.
" peijing,how is your eyes? don/t wear contact lens for the time being ok? take care, i really miss you very much."
peijing replied.
" i will, i miss you too, i gonna sleep, msg you tml when i go work, night, love. "
He feel so trouble, he wonder why peijing did not reply his sms? he asked himself why why? @ work, he keep asking elvin about it, why why? elvin just give him one answer,
" girls nowadays are very weird lah....don/t think too much about her, it will affect your work."
After work, jinming was kind of bored and hungry, it had been a long time he had a good dinner, so he asked his colleagues out for a dinner, yiming,zhuping,jianwei,elvin,gao an went with him....but the "kuku" jinming make a wrong turn in one of the intersection, he nearly got himself into a accident, lucky the steering wheel he moved was fast enough, if not his car could have been crashed by the lorry.
He was lost awhile in some car park, his hp was in slience mode, zhuping had called him 3 times, it was not answered.....after awhile, jinming finally found the place.
The same, once jinming got home, his first thing is to on his laptop....to see if peijing is online, he finally saw her msn message!!!! it was a offline msn message by peijing.
peijing typed on
23 aug ,540am
" i know you are @ work,i did not reply your sms,cause im using hi card,please take care of yourself, drink more water ok? i kinda miss you very much, i hope there will be no other ppl that comes between us. iloveu "
Jinming is so delighted to see her msn message, the same night he sms her again.
Jinming texted.
" peijing,how is your eyes? don/t wear contact lens for the time being ok? take care, i really miss you very much."
peijing replied.
" i will, i miss you too, i gonna sleep, msg you tml when i go work, night, love. "
Friday, September 28, 2007
The Birthday cake and surprise - part 14
Jinming wanted to give peijing another surprise....that night after his work, he went home search for online cake shop....he planned to give her a birthday surprise...early on...peijing had told jinming that on the first week of sept, she may come and visit him....she had been viewing the tickets online.
Jinming had already planned a 1 week holiday to Los Angeles with his 2 friends, weisiong and jianwei....plus one of his singapore friend, liting is joining them for this trip....he hoped peijing would joined them too...he even asked liting if she could help to book the air tickets for her,cause liting is a air crew.
Jinming thought she would really come,he really hope he could see her.Unknown to peijing, jinming had booked a hot air balloon trip in california,Los Angeles and planned to celebrate her birthday for her in it...he had emailed the detail everything to http://www.hotairtours.com/ .
On the other hand, he had also ordered a birthday cake for her from http://www.emicakes.com.sg/cart/cakespic/standard/mangoultimate_index.htm , a mango cake, cause he remembered he once saw her eating mango cake in front of the webcam.
Jinming had planned the cake to be reached from 1 to 5pm in between, he knew at this time she would be at home....he even got the emicakes msn and even chatted with the staff in msn for a few days....the staff from emicakes said he is so sweet and romantic.
But jinming had not seen peijing for this few days online, he wonder how is she? whenever jinming saw the staff in emicakes online, he would msn her and asked how is the going? will the cake reach on time? the wordings on the cake is right? he wrote on the cake.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIJING"
The staff from emicakes had been chatting with jinming a couple of days....jinming just miss her lots.
Before he sleep, he texted a sms to peijing.
" hi ppp, i miss you, how come so long never see you online? how is your eyes? "
Jinming had already planned a 1 week holiday to Los Angeles with his 2 friends, weisiong and jianwei....plus one of his singapore friend, liting is joining them for this trip....he hoped peijing would joined them too...he even asked liting if she could help to book the air tickets for her,cause liting is a air crew.
Jinming thought she would really come,he really hope he could see her.Unknown to peijing, jinming had booked a hot air balloon trip in california,Los Angeles and planned to celebrate her birthday for her in it...he had emailed the detail everything to http://www.hotairtours.com/ .
On the other hand, he had also ordered a birthday cake for her from http://www.emicakes.com.sg/cart/cakespic/standard/mangoultimate_index.htm , a mango cake, cause he remembered he once saw her eating mango cake in front of the webcam.
Jinming had planned the cake to be reached from 1 to 5pm in between, he knew at this time she would be at home....he even got the emicakes msn and even chatted with the staff in msn for a few days....the staff from emicakes said he is so sweet and romantic.
But jinming had not seen peijing for this few days online, he wonder how is she? whenever jinming saw the staff in emicakes online, he would msn her and asked how is the going? will the cake reach on time? the wordings on the cake is right? he wrote on the cake.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIJING"
The staff from emicakes had been chatting with jinming a couple of days....jinming just miss her lots.
Before he sleep, he texted a sms to peijing.
" hi ppp, i miss you, how come so long never see you online? how is your eyes? "
Thursday, September 27, 2007
The accompany phone call - part 13
After a long wait, thanks for the support peeps, the long awaited part 13 is back.
Her 4pm, his 1am.
After so long, peijing finally appear again! she left a tag message on jinming's blog on 19 august 0620am.
she tagged.
"imu, althought nowadays i dun talk much, i miss your voice, iloveu"
Jinming saw it, he was happy to see her tag on his blog....he was about to sleep at this hour, but peijing came online this time....his 1am her 4pm.
Jinming was worried about her infected eyes, he dunno how is she? how is her eyes?
Peijing message jinming the moment she came online....their conversation started like this.
Jingming typed.
" how is your eyes? getting better? still got swollen?"
peijing replied.
"still abit pain, but ok."
jingming.
"where is the jbear i gave you?"
peijing.
"by my side, accompany me sleep this few days,has become my chouchou pillow"
jingming.
" dun bully jbear ok?, if you ill treat him, he will report to me."
peijing.
"i will not."
then suddenly their conversation was cutoff, peijing went offline.Jinming was puzzled by the sudden offline her....he waited for her by his laptop.
15 mins later, peijing smsed jinming.
she texted.
"can you call me now? "
Jinming called her.
Peijing told jinming she is going to the hospital now, her eyes is getting serious, the doctor gave her a letter to SGH...jinming is worried but he can/t do anything....he was with her in the phone from the moment she step out of the clinc till she went home and pack her stuffs then to the hospital.
He accompany her for about 1 hour in phone.
Till her name was called, even when she entered the room of the doctor, he is still there with her, jinming voice accompanied her, until the doctor asked her to drop the phone.
30 mins later, she messaged jinming again....jinming called her again....lucky she no need to stay in the hospital.....the phonechat last within 5 min, peijing was busy on the another line meeting her "dad" ....she told jinming, she is going to attend the 7th month ghost festival dinner.
That night of jinming, he slept at 4am and wake up at 7am.....he worried about her eyes,he can/t do anything but just accompany her in the phone till she reached the hospital.
That night, he also discovered something about her, she don/t like to stay in hospital with old peoples.
Her 4pm, his 1am.
After so long, peijing finally appear again! she left a tag message on jinming's blog on 19 august 0620am.
she tagged.
"imu, althought nowadays i dun talk much, i miss your voice, iloveu"
Jinming saw it, he was happy to see her tag on his blog....he was about to sleep at this hour, but peijing came online this time....his 1am her 4pm.
Jinming was worried about her infected eyes, he dunno how is she? how is her eyes?
Peijing message jinming the moment she came online....their conversation started like this.
Jingming typed.
" how is your eyes? getting better? still got swollen?"
peijing replied.
"still abit pain, but ok."
jingming.
"where is the jbear i gave you?"
peijing.
"by my side, accompany me sleep this few days,has become my chouchou pillow"
jingming.
" dun bully jbear ok?, if you ill treat him, he will report to me."
peijing.
"i will not."
then suddenly their conversation was cutoff, peijing went offline.Jinming was puzzled by the sudden offline her....he waited for her by his laptop.
15 mins later, peijing smsed jinming.
she texted.
"can you call me now? "
Jinming called her.
Peijing told jinming she is going to the hospital now, her eyes is getting serious, the doctor gave her a letter to SGH...jinming is worried but he can/t do anything....he was with her in the phone from the moment she step out of the clinc till she went home and pack her stuffs then to the hospital.
He accompany her for about 1 hour in phone.
Till her name was called, even when she entered the room of the doctor, he is still there with her, jinming voice accompanied her, until the doctor asked her to drop the phone.
30 mins later, she messaged jinming again....jinming called her again....lucky she no need to stay in the hospital.....the phonechat last within 5 min, peijing was busy on the another line meeting her "dad" ....she told jinming, she is going to attend the 7th month ghost festival dinner.
That night of jinming, he slept at 4am and wake up at 7am.....he worried about her eyes,he can/t do anything but just accompany her in the phone till she reached the hospital.
That night, he also discovered something about her, she don/t like to stay in hospital with old peoples.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Love is?
Love is not falling for $
love is not greedy
love is pure
love is simple
love is not branded
love is not sweetalk
love is not flirting
love is not boostful
love is willingly
love is only the heart knew it,not your mind.
Love is not showing with good gifts.
Love is not pretended
Love is concern and care.
Love is not make use of.
Love is when i suddenly think of you.
Love is not only word.
Love is not sex.
Love is not hurting others.
Love is when two old couple hold hands walking in the park.
love is not greedy
love is pure
love is simple
love is not branded
love is not sweetalk
love is not flirting
love is not boostful
love is willingly
love is only the heart knew it,not your mind.
Love is not showing with good gifts.
Love is not pretended
Love is concern and care.
Love is not make use of.
Love is when i suddenly think of you.
Love is not only word.
Love is not sex.
Love is not hurting others.
Love is when two old couple hold hands walking in the park.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
The seldom chat her - part 12
After that night of truth, it seemed that is not that sweet anymore...the conversation between them turns dull....not much words...jinming also seldom see her in msn, as her computer was infected by virus.
There were a few times that jinming called her, their conversation ended in just 5 mins, cause peijing was sleeping due to the infection of her eyes.
Jinming had really no chance to move a step into her heart, her shut door and door bell never ring.
He could only pen down his feeling in his blog, how he feel everyday for her.
He recieved another tag board message from her on 19 aug 7.19pm
"ppp: imu, althought nowadays i dun talk much,im having serious mood swing,sorry, i miss your voice, iloveu "
He miss her too, but what can he do? He wanted to hear her voice, but he scare,not more than 5 mins,peijing will wana end the chat and sleep.
Jinming can do nothing but wait...he hope her eyes is well....so he don/t dare to disturb her.
He knew her mood swing must be because of the hiroshima guy, he had been ignoring her.
In life, there is only 2 thing that lead us to mood swing, one is love ,one is $.
There were a few times that jinming called her, their conversation ended in just 5 mins, cause peijing was sleeping due to the infection of her eyes.
Jinming had really no chance to move a step into her heart, her shut door and door bell never ring.
He could only pen down his feeling in his blog, how he feel everyday for her.
He recieved another tag board message from her on 19 aug 7.19pm
"ppp: imu, althought nowadays i dun talk much,im having serious mood swing,sorry, i miss your voice, iloveu "
He miss her too, but what can he do? He wanted to hear her voice, but he scare,not more than 5 mins,peijing will wana end the chat and sleep.
Jinming can do nothing but wait...he hope her eyes is well....so he don/t dare to disturb her.
He knew her mood swing must be because of the hiroshima guy, he had been ignoring her.
In life, there is only 2 thing that lead us to mood swing, one is love ,one is $.
The surprise birthday flower and bear - part 11
It supposed to be a surprise to her, but jinming accidentally told her about the gift he wanted to give her that sad night.
He waited for hours and hours,his friday and her saturday....he counted exactly what time the gift will be deliever to her house...suppose to be from 1 to 5pm sg time.
155pm, peijing smsed jinming.
" who say i dun like it(the gift), i like it very much lor,thanks,im online now.love"
Nudge jinming in msn by peijing.
"boy, really thank you for the roses and bear, who say i dun like it, i stared at the flower and bear for 5 min and keep snapping picture of it non stop "
Ever since, she used the bear and roses pic as her msn display pic, jinming was so happy to see it....she also wrote a blog entry on her old blog about this bear and flower, but she never mention a name of jinming was the one who sent, she only stated a gift from states....in her "new" blog, the picture of the bear and flower was displayed up on her pictures log.
That day they did not chat much...althought jinming happy to know that she like the gift, in his heart, that mystery deleted blog entry still haunt him....his heart is always why? why? why?
Is it fated or what? peijing's msn got virus, keep shutting down by itself...this also affected their chat.
He waited for hours and hours,his friday and her saturday....he counted exactly what time the gift will be deliever to her house...suppose to be from 1 to 5pm sg time.
155pm, peijing smsed jinming.
" who say i dun like it(the gift), i like it very much lor,thanks,im online now.love"
Nudge jinming in msn by peijing.
"boy, really thank you for the roses and bear, who say i dun like it, i stared at the flower and bear for 5 min and keep snapping picture of it non stop "
Ever since, she used the bear and roses pic as her msn display pic, jinming was so happy to see it....she also wrote a blog entry on her old blog about this bear and flower, but she never mention a name of jinming was the one who sent, she only stated a gift from states....in her "new" blog, the picture of the bear and flower was displayed up on her pictures log.
That day they did not chat much...althought jinming happy to know that she like the gift, in his heart, that mystery deleted blog entry still haunt him....his heart is always why? why? why?
Is it fated or what? peijing's msn got virus, keep shutting down by itself...this also affected their chat.
The tag board message - part 10
This truth really hurt him, not really cause of that guy, but the mystery deleted blog entry, till now, it is still a mystery to himself.
Jinming think of what she had told him the whole night, in his mind, he keep thinking about her and the truth.....he was asking himself..should he give up?
He dislike to be 3rd party, he thinks that if she really like him, and the hiroshima guy really treat her well....he himself should not have appear in the picture between them.
Jinming can/t do anything...this thing had been brother him all the while.
While he was writing his blog, that blog had been with him for years, he never failed to note down all the deep thoughts he had these years, no matter happy or sad.It had been part of his life.
Jinming saw a tag board message by her on 11aug,5.24am
" ppp: i miss u, can you dun look at the bad side? i never give up on you, why u giving up urself? iloveu "
Jinming was happy yet sad to see this message, he knew no matter how to compare, he is just a replacement or a standby in her heart?
He like her, he decide not to give up, he will wait....he once promised peijing that no matter what happen, he will be always by her side, always be there for her.
That night, Jinming spent a few hours reading whole of her old blog, every words,every sentence and every paragraph she once wrote.
He hope he would understand her.
Jinming think of what she had told him the whole night, in his mind, he keep thinking about her and the truth.....he was asking himself..should he give up?
He dislike to be 3rd party, he thinks that if she really like him, and the hiroshima guy really treat her well....he himself should not have appear in the picture between them.
Jinming can/t do anything...this thing had been brother him all the while.
While he was writing his blog, that blog had been with him for years, he never failed to note down all the deep thoughts he had these years, no matter happy or sad.It had been part of his life.
Jinming saw a tag board message by her on 11aug,5.24am
" ppp: i miss u, can you dun look at the bad side? i never give up on you, why u giving up urself? iloveu "
Jinming was happy yet sad to see this message, he knew no matter how to compare, he is just a replacement or a standby in her heart?
He like her, he decide not to give up, he will wait....he once promised peijing that no matter what happen, he will be always by her side, always be there for her.
That night, Jinming spent a few hours reading whole of her old blog, every words,every sentence and every paragraph she once wrote.
He hope he would understand her.
The answer - Part 9
Jinming puzzled for quite long.
Finally he brace himself up, and text a sms to her. asked her why did she deleted the blog?
No answer from her still.
So he decided to call her....the phone rang for less than a minute.
She answered the call.
Jinming.
" how your eyes? you having a infection? you ok? ermmm why did you delete away the blog entry and frienster testimonial i gave? "
peijing.
" what delete? what thing? i had never touch the computer whole day as i was resting on my table, i only went in to blog about my eyes. and i never see any testimonial before " im very tired now, i called you later, bye "
Jinming was quite confused about the mystery deleted blog entry, only she had the password excess to it, he was sad that she did not tell off the truth.
He texted her a few sms, say wana talk to her.
She replied.
" sorry just now i was sleeping on my table, what you asking about? "
Jinming texted her in sms.
" i wana talk to you when you reached home. "
When peijing reached home after her bath.she gave a video call in msn to jinming.
They had a quarrel, jinming was asking about the deleted entry, she said million of times that she did not delete it.
Jinming asked and asked.
"you have a boyfriend is it? " "that guy you went out with thursday is your boyfriend? "
Peijing replied angrily.
" my friend is a girl not guy, i don/t have a boyfriend, if you wana think is boyfriend then boyfriend, whatever you think, i dun care!!!! you are not my boyfriend,you have no right to ask me this and that ! ok!
Jinming keep quiet, abit hurt by her words...he did not sound anything.
Peijing.
"sorry" ( for her blunt words )
Peijing.
"ok, i admit i like someone now in hiroshima,japan. That guy keep ignore me and hackcare about me.But he is not my boyfriend,im single."
Jinming really shocked, to his mind again???? he asked himself.
"am i the 3rd party again?"
Jinming replied.
"so im the 3rd party between you and him,i should not have come into this picture"
Peijing.
"No, you are not ok! im single, yes, you come into the picture, but i like you too "
Jinming was really sad to hear that, he keep asking himself why?
Peijing.
"let be friends first, till you know me well that you decide wana put feelings in "
Jinming was heart broken to hear the truth.
Both cried.
Jinming.
"promise me, you will go and see a doctor tml ok?"
peijing.
"ok i will, no worries"
peijing.
"promise me, drink lots of water and come back straight away go sleep"
jinming.
"ok"
So this was the truth that jinming found out, that whole night,he did not sleep at all, he chatted with her till 730am in the morning.Reality is so cruel, now he knew that her heart had actually occupied by someone, that guy in hiroshima.But he knew he like her....his feeling is confusing....the truth hurt him.He dunno what to do.
It was the very last time jinming saw her in webcam, her swollen eyes.
Finally he brace himself up, and text a sms to her. asked her why did she deleted the blog?
No answer from her still.
So he decided to call her....the phone rang for less than a minute.
She answered the call.
Jinming.
" how your eyes? you having a infection? you ok? ermmm why did you delete away the blog entry and frienster testimonial i gave? "
peijing.
" what delete? what thing? i had never touch the computer whole day as i was resting on my table, i only went in to blog about my eyes. and i never see any testimonial before " im very tired now, i called you later, bye "
Jinming was quite confused about the mystery deleted blog entry, only she had the password excess to it, he was sad that she did not tell off the truth.
He texted her a few sms, say wana talk to her.
She replied.
" sorry just now i was sleeping on my table, what you asking about? "
Jinming texted her in sms.
" i wana talk to you when you reached home. "
When peijing reached home after her bath.she gave a video call in msn to jinming.
They had a quarrel, jinming was asking about the deleted entry, she said million of times that she did not delete it.
Jinming asked and asked.
"you have a boyfriend is it? " "that guy you went out with thursday is your boyfriend? "
Peijing replied angrily.
" my friend is a girl not guy, i don/t have a boyfriend, if you wana think is boyfriend then boyfriend, whatever you think, i dun care!!!! you are not my boyfriend,you have no right to ask me this and that ! ok!
Jinming keep quiet, abit hurt by her words...he did not sound anything.
Peijing.
"sorry" ( for her blunt words )
Peijing.
"ok, i admit i like someone now in hiroshima,japan. That guy keep ignore me and hackcare about me.But he is not my boyfriend,im single."
Jinming really shocked, to his mind again???? he asked himself.
"am i the 3rd party again?"
Jinming replied.
"so im the 3rd party between you and him,i should not have come into this picture"
Peijing.
"No, you are not ok! im single, yes, you come into the picture, but i like you too "
Jinming was really sad to hear that, he keep asking himself why?
Peijing.
"let be friends first, till you know me well that you decide wana put feelings in "
Jinming was heart broken to hear the truth.
Both cried.
Jinming.
"promise me, you will go and see a doctor tml ok?"
peijing.
"ok i will, no worries"
peijing.
"promise me, drink lots of water and come back straight away go sleep"
jinming.
"ok"
So this was the truth that jinming found out, that whole night,he did not sleep at all, he chatted with her till 730am in the morning.Reality is so cruel, now he knew that her heart had actually occupied by someone, that guy in hiroshima.But he knew he like her....his feeling is confusing....the truth hurt him.He dunno what to do.
It was the very last time jinming saw her in webcam, her swollen eyes.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
The deleted blog entry - Part 8
It was friday, a long day for jinming, he had just came back from work.As usual, he would touch the mouse pad of his laptop....the black screen will brighten up....he saw 3 msn messages!!! but none of them is from her, all are his friends.
As usual, he would wash his clothes, cook his dinner and sit by his laptop to write his blog and browse the net.
He went to peijing's blog, to his shock??? that entry! that entry about him had gone!!! that entry that peijing wrote about him, her feelings towards him is deleted? he was really puzzled....he thought maybe his internet explorer has fault, he restart his laptop and keep refresh the page...and he confirmed that it had been deleted!
In jinming's mind and heart, both asked the same thing.
" why? why? why? "
He went to peijing's old blog, he saw actually she had changed and used back this old blog....her last entry was a short one....she stated that her eyes is swollen and infected.
He texted sms to her.
"peijing, you ok? what happen to your eyes? "
She did not reply at all....1 hour..2 hour...3 hour
He found something is wrong, he very confuse.....finally he decided to ask her why she deleted the entry? but the sms he texted wasn/t reply.
He wait and wait and waited....still no news from her....he was thinking if he should call her? he puzzle and puzzle and puzzled.
In jinming's mind.
" should i? "
As usual, he would wash his clothes, cook his dinner and sit by his laptop to write his blog and browse the net.
He went to peijing's blog, to his shock??? that entry! that entry about him had gone!!! that entry that peijing wrote about him, her feelings towards him is deleted? he was really puzzled....he thought maybe his internet explorer has fault, he restart his laptop and keep refresh the page...and he confirmed that it had been deleted!
In jinming's mind and heart, both asked the same thing.
" why? why? why? "
He went to peijing's old blog, he saw actually she had changed and used back this old blog....her last entry was a short one....she stated that her eyes is swollen and infected.
He texted sms to her.
"peijing, you ok? what happen to your eyes? "
She did not reply at all....1 hour..2 hour...3 hour
He found something is wrong, he very confuse.....finally he decided to ask her why she deleted the entry? but the sms he texted wasn/t reply.
He wait and wait and waited....still no news from her....he was thinking if he should call her? he puzzle and puzzle and puzzled.
In jinming's mind.
" should i? "
The someone
To love someone, you not only have to love the good things in him or her.To love her/him, first he must accept what he/she is.
You must learn to love his/her bad things too.
To like someone, it maybe a short time.
To love someone, you need lot of time.
To miss someone, when do you?
You must learn to love his/her bad things too.
To like someone, it maybe a short time.
To love someone, you need lot of time.
To miss someone, when do you?
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Tuesday, September 11, 2007
The make up - part 7
His 1am, Her 4pm
Again they met in this square monitor, it was national day, 9 of august.
It was also the first time, jinming saw her in makeup, peijing was preparing to go out with her friend.
It was also the last time both see each other in web cam.
It was also the first time that jinming feel something, just a wierd feeling, looking at the makeup her, he seem like dunno who is she.
Jinming overheard her phonechat with the friend while webcamming, he kept slience and peijing went to prepare herself.
Her last msg in msn to him was,
" im going out le, miss you, love"
Again they met in this square monitor, it was national day, 9 of august.
It was also the first time, jinming saw her in makeup, peijing was preparing to go out with her friend.
It was also the last time both see each other in web cam.
It was also the first time that jinming feel something, just a wierd feeling, looking at the makeup her, he seem like dunno who is she.
Jinming overheard her phonechat with the friend while webcamming, he kept slience and peijing went to prepare herself.
Her last msg in msn to him was,
" im going out le, miss you, love"
The tears - part 6
Jinming had wake up early, but 3 hours earlier than his normal wakeup time, he wana see her online....and yup he did.
his 4am, her 7pm....she had just finish work and he is going to prepare for work.
Jinming cherished the time he had with her, 8am his working time, he would spent even the last minute to be in webcam with her, 745am is the latest timing he rush to work.
That day, before jinming and peijing ended their chat, jinming saw peijing wipping her eyes, kind of a sad face.
In jinming mind.
"is she crying?"
Jinming asked peijing.
" what happened to you? huh? your eyes very dry is it? is it cause of contact lens? or are you crying? "
peijing replied.
"yup, my eyes is kinda of dry"
The last song that played in jinming laptop before he ended this chat was when i fall in love by matthew dean...after this song they will end this chat.
Lucky, jinming was not late for work, after he park his car, he smsed peijing.
" Have a early night, i miss you "
peijing replied.
" i miss you too, actually just now i cried, i also dunno why? is the feeling that make me cry, feel abit stupid crying for a person i dunno well. "
jinming sent.
" don/t cry le, make me worry "
peijing replied.
" how i wished you were by my side now, decorate my room with me, spend time with me, i miss you"
jinming sent.
" how i wish too, dun cry le, i miss you, hope the first thing when im back home, will be able to see you online "
The Flower and bear - part 5
Jinming felt so sweet, he thinks he is in love with peijing, she is always in his mind while at work.They would send a few sms to each other while both not online.
This was her 3rd sms to him. she texted
" hi boy, morning to you, i hope my sms will brighten your day, im now at boat quay drinking with my friends, will msg you once i get home, miss you"
And the same, his first thing after work, was look at his laptop for her....but she was not online....jinming remembered that end of the mth is her birthday, he wana give her a surprise, so he went online and search for something....first thing is his mind is flower and second is bear.
So he decided to send her both, after searching for sometimes, he placed a order from wonder flora for a bear and 12 roses for her, it will be deliever on saturday 11 august, cause he knew this would only be the time she will be at home.
Jinming kept it as a suprise to her.
He hope she will like it,althought it is just flower and bear compared to the expensive gifts she got from her friends.
That night of her and the evening of his, she showed jinming the things she brought today, small cute keychain and a cute soft toy, she told him, whenever she feel unhappy, when she look at the the soft toy, she would be happy.
And again, both chatted till fall asleep in front of webcam...seeing each other in sleeping in blanket is so sweet.
That night, jinming dream of her, it was a sweet one.
This was her 3rd sms to him. she texted
" hi boy, morning to you, i hope my sms will brighten your day, im now at boat quay drinking with my friends, will msg you once i get home, miss you"
And the same, his first thing after work, was look at his laptop for her....but she was not online....jinming remembered that end of the mth is her birthday, he wana give her a surprise, so he went online and search for something....first thing is his mind is flower and second is bear.
So he decided to send her both, after searching for sometimes, he placed a order from wonder flora for a bear and 12 roses for her, it will be deliever on saturday 11 august, cause he knew this would only be the time she will be at home.
Jinming kept it as a suprise to her.
He hope she will like it,althought it is just flower and bear compared to the expensive gifts she got from her friends.
That night of her and the evening of his, she showed jinming the things she brought today, small cute keychain and a cute soft toy, she told him, whenever she feel unhappy, when she look at the the soft toy, she would be happy.
And again, both chatted till fall asleep in front of webcam...seeing each other in sleeping in blanket is so sweet.
That night, jinming dream of her, it was a sweet one.
Monday, September 10, 2007
That blog entry - part 4
Did love stuck between them? or it is just a crush in both party? they would webcam and see each other everyday.
Everyday the first thing jinming do, is to touch his mouse pad and hope the screen blink, it would be her, his laptop had not been close and her msn window had not been close since the day he met her.
Cause he dun wana end this chat, so the window will be left open althought the conversation is in a offline status.
peijing had created a new blog in xanga, she displayed some of her past photos in it and she wrote in her first entry - sunday, a short entry about the weather and how she abandon her old blog and get a new start on it and something about her on coming birthday.
Jinming saw it, he also began to browse throught her old blog, he read some of them...seem like he is getting interested in peijing.
while jinming was about to close the xanga window of her blog, he refresh the page and saw a new entry > the title was whenifallinlove, it was a entry about jinming that peijing had write, how she felt for this boyish guy, true feeling from the heart, in her blog the "J" is jinming? ermmm must be he think so, cause the things she mention is about him, but she also mention the distance bewteen them, so close yet so far....fall in love for her now is sweet and laughter,she mentioned that.
Jinming was real happy that she wrote something about him, right after he finished reading, he tag her in the comment list.
he texted.
" i love u............................i miss you"
After that blog entry, jinming would visit her xanga blog everyday without fail, to see any new entry about her? he also give her a new nick call ppp, somehow because of the piglets.
He would send her a sms everyday, to express the missing of her in him.And whenever he saw his msn message,sms, no matter how tired and stress is he in work, it really brighten his day.
In his msn nick, he texted.
"PPP,you are the reason that let me smile"
To him, she is kind of special,it is the feeling...jinming had slowly fall for her day by day.
Everyday the first thing jinming do, is to touch his mouse pad and hope the screen blink, it would be her, his laptop had not been close and her msn window had not been close since the day he met her.
Cause he dun wana end this chat, so the window will be left open althought the conversation is in a offline status.
peijing had created a new blog in xanga, she displayed some of her past photos in it and she wrote in her first entry - sunday, a short entry about the weather and how she abandon her old blog and get a new start on it and something about her on coming birthday.
Jinming saw it, he also began to browse throught her old blog, he read some of them...seem like he is getting interested in peijing.
while jinming was about to close the xanga window of her blog, he refresh the page and saw a new entry > the title was whenifallinlove, it was a entry about jinming that peijing had write, how she felt for this boyish guy, true feeling from the heart, in her blog the "J" is jinming? ermmm must be he think so, cause the things she mention is about him, but she also mention the distance bewteen them, so close yet so far....fall in love for her now is sweet and laughter,she mentioned that.
Jinming was real happy that she wrote something about him, right after he finished reading, he tag her in the comment list.
he texted.
" i love u............................i miss you"
After that blog entry, jinming would visit her xanga blog everyday without fail, to see any new entry about her? he also give her a new nick call ppp, somehow because of the piglets.
He would send her a sms everyday, to express the missing of her in him.And whenever he saw his msn message,sms, no matter how tired and stress is he in work, it really brighten his day.
In his msn nick, he texted.
"PPP,you are the reason that let me smile"
To him, she is kind of special,it is the feeling...jinming had slowly fall for her day by day.
The webcamming session - part 3
Her sunday, his saturday, early morning while Jinming was at work,he send her a sms, he texted
"i miss u".
She replied in 2 text sms,
"i began to miss you alittle too,............you still dunno me well,i hope if we are not together,we still can be friends next time........."
Jinming wondered? but he keeps that sms in another folder of his hp.
sweeet? huh? confusing?
Right after he came home from work, the first thing he did is on his laptop, he hope he could see her.
So fated that once he log in, a few minutes later, peijing log in too....she had just wake up from sleep....Jinming saw the webcam icon on her msn, he wonder if he could see her, he asked for permission from her.
Intially, she rejected in the video conversation chat....but dunno why? she accepted the invitation from jinming.....the first thing both of them showed each other is not each other.But the room of each other, jinming showed her his messy room,his clothes on his bed,his pictures on his wall.Peijing showed him her bed,her dressing table,her fav smelly pillow and those piglets she likes.
Then finally the webcam was adjusted to see each other, he saw the "stone" look her, but was natural and nice, her eyes caught his attention....she saw the boyish him, the tann him.
The webcam session lasted very long,more than 6 hours, peijing even got her mum to webcam with jinming, was kind of funny, her mum even commented that jinming look like her god brother....peijing was suppose to go lunch with her mum but cause of this web camming session, she did not go.
It was sweet, both of them play msn game, UNO,chat alot of things....they even chat till both of them fall asleep in the webcam....both were lying on each other bed, talking in the mic....seem like there are only 2 person in their own world...so sweet.
When peijing wanted to end the conversation, jinming say no....peijing tease jinming why?
jinming said, nothing.
peijing had sense that jinming is interested in her, so she asked him.
"you like me is it?"
Jinming answered her back.
"if you think i like you,means i like you, if you think im not, then no lor"
that was the answer to it.
After that, both look at each other to sleep in webcam.
Jinming really thinks that this girl is abit special, she gives him the feel that want to fall in love again, he thinks he like her, but it will be hard for him...he seems so close in webcam but far as in distances.
"i miss u".
She replied in 2 text sms,
"i began to miss you alittle too,............you still dunno me well,i hope if we are not together,we still can be friends next time........."
Jinming wondered? but he keeps that sms in another folder of his hp.
sweeet? huh? confusing?
Right after he came home from work, the first thing he did is on his laptop, he hope he could see her.
So fated that once he log in, a few minutes later, peijing log in too....she had just wake up from sleep....Jinming saw the webcam icon on her msn, he wonder if he could see her, he asked for permission from her.
Intially, she rejected in the video conversation chat....but dunno why? she accepted the invitation from jinming.....the first thing both of them showed each other is not each other.But the room of each other, jinming showed her his messy room,his clothes on his bed,his pictures on his wall.Peijing showed him her bed,her dressing table,her fav smelly pillow and those piglets she likes.
Then finally the webcam was adjusted to see each other, he saw the "stone" look her, but was natural and nice, her eyes caught his attention....she saw the boyish him, the tann him.
The webcam session lasted very long,more than 6 hours, peijing even got her mum to webcam with jinming, was kind of funny, her mum even commented that jinming look like her god brother....peijing was suppose to go lunch with her mum but cause of this web camming session, she did not go.
It was sweet, both of them play msn game, UNO,chat alot of things....they even chat till both of them fall asleep in the webcam....both were lying on each other bed, talking in the mic....seem like there are only 2 person in their own world...so sweet.
When peijing wanted to end the conversation, jinming say no....peijing tease jinming why?
jinming said, nothing.
peijing had sense that jinming is interested in her, so she asked him.
"you like me is it?"
Jinming answered her back.
"if you think i like you,means i like you, if you think im not, then no lor"
that was the answer to it.
After that, both look at each other to sleep in webcam.
Jinming really thinks that this girl is abit special, she gives him the feel that want to fall in love again, he thinks he like her, but it will be hard for him...he seems so close in webcam but far as in distances.
Sunday, September 9, 2007
he miss her, she miss "him"
he miss her,she miss "him"
"he" MIA, she miss him
she miss him or "him"?
he want "him" to love her
"he" dunno go where
he hope she be happy
but he himself not happy
he love her
she love "him"
she like him?
she still miss "him"
she sometime miss him
he try not miss her
but he cannot miss
he know "him"
"he" dunno him
she dunno he know "him"
"he" dunno she miss him
she,he,"him" who miss who?
but i only know i miss you is the answer, no matter what? dun rage my heart.
"he" MIA, she miss him
she miss him or "him"?
he want "him" to love her
"he" dunno go where
he hope she be happy
but he himself not happy
he love her
she love "him"
she like him?
she still miss "him"
she sometime miss him
he try not miss her
but he cannot miss
he know "him"
"he" dunno him
she dunno he know "him"
"he" dunno she miss him
she,he,"him" who miss who?
but i only know i miss you is the answer, no matter what? dun rage my heart.
Saturday, September 8, 2007
The phone chat - part 2
It was 0200 hours on his clock,Jinming was about to sleep, cause friday is always the longest day he stay at work,because of lounge, kind of really tired.
At this hour, it was her 1100 hours, peijing came online.Within a minute, she msg jinming,he was delighted.....she was at work using web messenger....they continue the chat....Out of sudden,dunno why? she gave her number to Jinming, and he called her in phone.
Intially peijing dun want, cause it feel weird, but jinming still call in the end...it was kind of funny....peijing took a break from her office and went down for a smoke and at the same time, she was on the phone with jinming.
Her voice sound like one of jinming's friend, crislyn, that phonechat lasted for 20 minutes...jinming found that this girl is quite special....dunno why? it is just a feel....it had been sometimes since this feeling came.
Jinming is a horoscope fanatic, he only get interested or fall for certain types of girls....it had been a long time since he had chatted with a girl for so long since his last mishap in 2005.
peijing is a virgo, it is in his category.
The on and off msn chat lasted about 2 hours after the phonechat and jinming fall asleep in front of his computer again.
At this hour, it was her 1100 hours, peijing came online.Within a minute, she msg jinming,he was delighted.....she was at work using web messenger....they continue the chat....Out of sudden,dunno why? she gave her number to Jinming, and he called her in phone.
Intially peijing dun want, cause it feel weird, but jinming still call in the end...it was kind of funny....peijing took a break from her office and went down for a smoke and at the same time, she was on the phone with jinming.
Her voice sound like one of jinming's friend, crislyn, that phonechat lasted for 20 minutes...jinming found that this girl is quite special....dunno why? it is just a feel....it had been sometimes since this feeling came.
Jinming is a horoscope fanatic, he only get interested or fall for certain types of girls....it had been a long time since he had chatted with a girl for so long since his last mishap in 2005.
peijing is a virgo, it is in his category.
The on and off msn chat lasted about 2 hours after the phonechat and jinming fall asleep in front of his computer again.
Friday, September 7, 2007
That day, that message - part 1
"Do you miss someone just by saying? or is the feel in it? the last time you said you miss me was 2 weeks ago??? after that, you went a miss....i wonder how are you?"
These messages is always on Jin ming's mind this whole week, he wonder how is she now? did his sms get throught her?
It all started a month ago,the "he" was jinming and the "her" is peijing.
Jin ming had just finished his daily run around the park near his house.He log into his internet, he saw someone in that forum,promoting some cards on the net, he just casually msg the person in that account and asked her something....a misunderstood message from that person in that forum lead to a beginning of love? Jinming was asking her about the card intro, instead of that,peijing intro herself as 20 female.
Peijing gave her msn to Jinming, and the chat begins......she told him, end of the month was her birthday, she plan to celebrate in a yatch.
That day the chat ended about 2 hours,cause jinming fall asleep in front of his computer.
These messages is always on Jin ming's mind this whole week, he wonder how is she now? did his sms get throught her?
It all started a month ago,the "he" was jinming and the "her" is peijing.
Jin ming had just finished his daily run around the park near his house.He log into his internet, he saw someone in that forum,promoting some cards on the net, he just casually msg the person in that account and asked her something....a misunderstood message from that person in that forum lead to a beginning of love? Jinming was asking her about the card intro, instead of that,peijing intro herself as 20 female.
Peijing gave her msn to Jinming, and the chat begins......she told him, end of the month was her birthday, she plan to celebrate in a yatch.
That day the chat ended about 2 hours,cause jinming fall asleep in front of his computer.
Thursday, September 6, 2007
Love
Love
Love is a feeling, a way to express out your innermost care.
Love is a joy for two, to be together no matter sadness or happiness.
Love is a must for spiritual growth.
Love makes you real; otherwise you remain just a fantasy, a dream with no substance in it..
Love gives you substance,integrity.
Don/t avoid love.go through it,with all its pain.
yes its hurts..but if you are in love it does not matter.
in fact,all those hurts strengthen you.
sometimes it really hurts badly,terribly, but all those wound are necessary to provoke, to challenge you.
Love is not a passion,
Love is not an emotion,
Love is a very deep understanding that somebody somehow completes you.
The presence of the other enchances your presence
the feeling is strong, just that pure presence, nothing else, is enough to make you happy...you are in love
Sex is not love,
sex is just a exercise between two body,
so never think sex as love,
otherwise you will be deceived.
The feeling of being love...the care, the way of being possess by someone, the hug, the kiss by someone you love is totally undescriable.....it can only be feel.......where is the love?
Love is a feeling, a way to express out your innermost care.
Love is a joy for two, to be together no matter sadness or happiness.
Love is a must for spiritual growth.
Love makes you real; otherwise you remain just a fantasy, a dream with no substance in it..
Love gives you substance,integrity.
Don/t avoid love.go through it,with all its pain.
yes its hurts..but if you are in love it does not matter.
in fact,all those hurts strengthen you.
sometimes it really hurts badly,terribly, but all those wound are necessary to provoke, to challenge you.
Love is not a passion,
Love is not an emotion,
Love is a very deep understanding that somebody somehow completes you.
The presence of the other enchances your presence
the feeling is strong, just that pure presence, nothing else, is enough to make you happy...you are in love
Sex is not love,
sex is just a exercise between two body,
so never think sex as love,
otherwise you will be deceived.
The feeling of being love...the care, the way of being possess by someone, the hug, the kiss by someone you love is totally undescriable.....it can only be feel.......where is the love?
Why this blog?
I started my first blog in 2003,cause of first love.
Love what is the actual meaning of it? do you love someone just by saying? or is the feel that in you?
this blog by me, i will write some nice,beautiful,sad,romantic love stories that i had heard of,seen of or even experience it before.... or maybe some love stories that does not exist but created by me.
There will be poems and nice songs about love introduced in this blog too.
so peeps, just stay tune for this blog update.....and most of all, don/t forget about my personal blog @ cmstory.blogspot.com
cheers,
Muyi jerson
0126am
Location: Los Angeles, telegraph road
Love what is the actual meaning of it? do you love someone just by saying? or is the feel that in you?
this blog by me, i will write some nice,beautiful,sad,romantic love stories that i had heard of,seen of or even experience it before.... or maybe some love stories that does not exist but created by me.
There will be poems and nice songs about love introduced in this blog too.
so peeps, just stay tune for this blog update.....and most of all, don/t forget about my personal blog @ cmstory.blogspot.com
cheers,
Muyi jerson
0126am
Location: Los Angeles, telegraph road
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